dil jo bhi kahe

I was listening to this song this night . Suddenly it reminded me of my first few days in mumbai tcs. I was put up in a rest house in adheri east. just a few paces from the station. I had got my new nokia 6680 and had put in some songs just to feel hwo good it sounds. Office was a chillled out place since we werent allocated to any project. The Best bus used to drop me at andheri station and from there i used to walk to the rest house, about a few kilometer. And in that walk i used to listen to this song. Every night the same set of songs and this song specially used to prep up my pace like anything. Totally carefree and unaware of the mumbai habits, those were really golden days. Empty street and walking at your own pace is something which i lacked ever since i mingled with mumbai.  This  song suddenly brought upon me that same old feeling of careless joy :) ................................ somehow i am missing mumbai !! :(

the case of disappearing toilet paper

The title itself is so disgusting but yeah this case has been irking my mind at the most important time of the days (the loo).  Well the thought itself is so funny cause an year ago i found it so hard to even think of using paper to wipe off my bum and here i am now, all dependent on  rolls of 4*4 inch soft and absorbant piece of paper. But it is really using a lot of my creative times. Every time I go in for meditation(read as loo) i see my roll been skinned. Its disheartening to see this happening as my mind sways on to think of a possibility when I just dont notice the empty roll and then I would be F***d up.  Oh yeah the mighty paper has become so significant. That is why I always check for the extra rolls of tissue paper(Just in case !! ). This routine has become as regular as i used to check my bathroom's tap water before disposing of my waste back in indian stylos or ( indian-converted-english-stylos). Cause thats the worst f***d up situation that you wouldnt want to go through anytimen even if you are the only person remaining in the entire planet(I am legend style ;). Just the thought of crawling up searching for that tissue(/water) rides a shrill though the nerves.

So.... it happens to be the fact that i have a roomie to share my apartment with.Yay !! at least I could vent a little bit of my boredome to him.That is what I had planned.That dream got shattered, he is workaholic man with sole aim to get the project done and like every project manager, he assumes the role of project manager even at home which i have been happily evading off by my sheet acts of ignorance. Having been put the fact/premise in place, the recent activities in my apartments has reported a spike in resource usage. Every resource at my apartment have reported a sudden surge in demand. Which is pleasing as well as disturbing. Pleasing in the sense that most of them are used before they rot :D and disturbing cause when I search for something,its usually gone :( . And so I come to the toilet paper. My single pack of tissue paper lasted me for the entire year( yeah i am quite efficient on toilet paper usage :D ..khi khi ) while the next pack is on its way to extinction even before a month of having it brought on this earth(my apartment). Every visit to the holy place make me think how much exactly would be the usage :D .. is he using it for the right purpose or .... .. it has swayed too much .. 

ossomness of ossomeness

the past is gone .. the future is not sure .. the only thing which you have is today and thats why its called "present" ... isnt it a great thought ?????

Right or Wrong / Good or Bad / ??? or !!!!

This thought had come to me in so many ways and infinite number of times. How to decide what is good and what is not. A big dilemma. This thing has been made so complex in this world that sometimes it feel quite chaotic and hypocrite in a sense.
(Although at this point of time most of my friend would be wondering how am i writing such a serious post)
But yeah this question has been going around my head for long.Its such a confusing thing to decide.e.g. a person with best intention(you dont knw that person and dont know about his/her intentions) tries to do good but happens bad, what would you think of him. Or what if someone does exactly opposite to you when you think you are damm right and actually happens bad. Or when you dont know whats brimming inside head of so many people around you. I could sense that following heart is the best answer to the question but a logic has to be there for things to be consistent. Its just like a need of some dimensional analysis on this perspective. The only problem being that such a question would have so many dimensions to analyse that it would be mind boggling.
Why do we see something as bad. Is it because it might hurt or something of that negative sorts. Must be something in our brains. Or what can i say social education that a person goes through.But then a thing can be good/bad depending upon the perspective.
That is what has been brimming in my head.
off i go now !! :)

long time no see

Washington Trip

Laugh

How important is laughter to life ??

damm too much important.

It brings up the energy .. lowers down the stress ... BP ... lots of oxytocins ... health ... everything is positive about a laughter.
Laughter.... when you really mean laughing out LOUD .. carefree of the world around you .. feels like the most pleasurable thing of the moment .. alleviates the innermost stress/pain in an instance .. takes out the sadness ... guilt ... everything out .. No thought comes when you are (really) laughing ... its just like thinking ... just like you cant think while thinking ...
Finding this laughter is though but very tricky. Cause its not the squeaks or smiles that matter .. it has to come from within ... it has to be pure ... and then it hits your head and make a gud day.

Republic Day Weekend

Plan was morning cricket. Inadvertently I woke up 8.10 am just to see the temperature chilling at 2^oC. I summoned all my lazyness and sunk into deep sleep again J. With weather playing spoilsport for 3 consecutive weekends, I was left wanting to get out of the apartment desperately. It was a great omen as Ranjit told us that he is going to Raleigh and asked if anybody wanted to join him. I jumped into the opportunity. Bathed super speed and ran to his apartment.

A 2 hrs drive and we were at the "Around the World" market, the Indian Store we take month full supply of stuff back. Its such a great feeling to see Indian faces everywhere. Felt like shopping in Indian super market. Add to that there we couple of gals who weren't horrifying .. hehehe … so chanced a little flirt as well with no effect but got no sneers .. lucky .. shopped like anything .. after a couple of hrs I was exhausted and hungry. Ranjit and Deepesh also wanted to grab some Indian food , so we raced ourselves to an Indian restaurant "Tower Indian". We relished our taste buds with vada , onion rawa mysore masala dosa .. and gajar ka halwa as sweet dish … we savoured each bite with near to divine pleasure .. the clock struck 9 pm and we were late .

We then started out drive back. Deepesh put on super tracks on his ipod and we were like shouting on each song. It felt good. Really good. After like 1 hrs , we entered into heavy fog. With only few meters visibility, we were excited .. yeah it was exciting … 30 mins fog and we neared back to Deepesh's apartment. So it was a nice Saturday .

Untitled

While going to office, lots of thoughts attacked my thinking part of the brain. Most of them arbit and temporary. One thing stayed.

I happen to remember a dialogue I don't remember between who but the lines

"When you get what you long fought/wished/worked-your-ass-off for , the feeling which was so effervescent suddenly drops down to oh-so-normal".

 
 

Yeah, I had that same feeling today for many things and there seems to be no answer to it… probably there was some dialogue just after that which I don't rem now …

Mall here and there

After yet another boring day at office, we had planned to play tennis. Turned out we were out of gud balls … :) … we wanted more baaals in the frame .. Heheheh .. So we tuk ride to the nearby shopping complex .. The sports shop mite have beaten some good mall in its size.. The whole area was as vacant as someone had issued curfew .. Thats when I had a feeling how difference is being in a mall here (US) and there ( India) … being in the city of mumbai I was spoilt by visiting malls .. Our place to chill used to be malls .. It has all the energy .. To shop .. To eat .. To watch a movie .. To line maro chicks-who-wouldn't-even-give-a-damm… or to say a "complete experience" .. Here its like a funeral .. No one even so cheerful that they have come to mall … LAZY ASSES … they seem to get depressed even by the idea of "work" .. How one would enjoi malls when ppl are so depressing … empty malls and empty showrooms … boring …

 

Ps: a quick snack recipe

Heat some puffed rice …for 5-7 mins … put a little mustard oil .. Pinch of salt …. And choppped onions to taste … mix it .. And devour … it perks up the taste buds without putting up even marginal calories …

 
 

 
 

Into the wild

I saw this movie last week and somehow felt connected to the theory. The theory of breaking out of the norms. And its not making a revolution or agitate against how bad the world is, but to break from the concepts of how you perceive the norms of society.

What is 'Success'. How would one define it to be. What is life. Giving it a perspective makes us come to conclusion that its all relative. Relative to what society has put through. Is it necessary to live like how we do ?

That is what had me thinking … what do we really want ? The answer ?? I don't have.

ps: The song below is from this movie. Sung by Eddie 'GOD' Vedder

Song of the day

when I walk beside her
i am the better man
when I look to leave her
I always stagger back again
once I built an ivory tower
so I could worship from above
and when I climbed down to be set free
she took me in again


there's a big
a big hard sun
beaten on the big people
in the big hard world

when she comes to greet me
she is mercy at my feet
when I see her pin her charm
she just throws it back again
once I sought an early grave
to find a better land
she just smiled and laughed at me
and took her blues back again

there's a big
a big hard sun
beaten on the big people
in the big hard world

of sirens and khichdi

Doesnt the conjuction sound wierd but that is what popped into my mind...

i had taken a nap after watching Kite Runner in the evening to wake up at around 9. Udit woke me up and we had quite a chat about his trip to Canada. I was feeling famished since i just had a plate of poha in lunch. Decided to make khichdi. Callup mom and asked her the recipe. After a couple of good dishes i was feeling lucky to make this khichdi but this experiment turned out to be bad. It was a real pathetic khichdi. just about edible to have it for the dinner.
While having dinner i heard siren wailing.
--flash to the past ---watching hollywood movies---
Typical movie (thirller/action) involves somebody waking up to wailing sirens and humming of helicopter

yeah i was feeling the same experience .. wailing of polce sirens and humming of helicopter ... felt like i was in some movie ... i am still not able to find words to explain that feeling.

so that is why the topic.

First week of 2008

It all started with really beautiful sunshine morning .... i had to drop my rent car back to the airport so ran through to the airport hurriedly .. the streets were empty just like they are at the times of Holi .... with sun providing the heat much needed at this chilling temperature... came back through cab only to find some issues logged in by the user ( clients) on the 1st day.. crap ... but understandable .. a couple of mails here and there and i was back to sleep ... spent entire afternoon and night at Ranjit's place ... working .. dozin off ... munching something or the other .... twas nice .. next day spent doing something which i dont happen to remember much but had dinner at another colleague's place ... 5 drumsticks and rice ... d.e.l.i.c.i.o.u.s ...... next 2 days i didnt come out of my aprtment ... Ranjit decided not to go to office and we couldnt agree more .. ( who would want to go to office at 8 am .. that too trying to beat the chilling temperatures.. naaah ...) ... worked (he he )from home ... friday nite we had a round of cards for about 5 hrs ... which just finished and i victoriously finished last .... signing off as of now ... will post some more when i feel like typing :)

till then ... i visited an adjacent city on new year's eve .. instead of going through the normal highway .. i took the narrow highway and saw those nice rustic america ... while coming back i tried taking some images of the ride ... .

Songs

Sometimes when i hear a song i feel like reminisce some past ... happy or sad doesnt matter but songs generally get associated with what has been happening .. and when that song hits later in time .. its gets me back to that moment/time ...